Don't Doubt Yourself.

 This past week I've been in a bit of a mood, without knowing exactly why. Yesterday Pam helped me work through that some, and so I wanted to hit the high points of it in this post, and then move on. I want to share with you all because you are the people who love me and support me, and so sharing is a way of asking for your help.

1. Fear of going backwards: I got to my goal weight, and where I am today, basically in a bubble. A bubble with no going out to eat, a bubble with minimal vacations, a bubble with LOTS of time to work out, cook, meal plan. And while I cannot even express how happy I am that there is light at the end of the COVID tunnel, for me there is also fear. Not fear of COVID. Ive been out in the world consistently this entire time because its my job to be. I know how to be safe. Its fear of how to maintain where I am in my health, when not in a bubble. When I am not in my controlled environment, how do I fair? Do I eat 1 cookie or 6? Do I prioritize my workouts or sacrifice that to make time for others? I feel pretty confident that I won't sacrifice activity. But the food is the challenge. So...when I see you and I bring my own food, or I say "no thank you" when you offer me a cookie, don't ask again (or don't ask in the first place, trust me, I will have one if I want it haha). 

2. You all know I am not always the chattiest person in the world. Sure, get me 1:1 and I can definitely chat, but in groups, or with people I don't know, it just isn't my thing. And as restrictions lift I know I will find myself in those situations more. And for this past year I have spoken with mainly with people who know me, get me, love me, regardless. So stepping back into the world of stranger danger is not something I am totally looking forward to. But thats okay, I will take steps and do what makes me comfortable.

So, those are my two things. Not exactly a quick summary but a summary non-the-less. Switching topics completely, as many of you have seen, this week I came up with a new fundraiser for Relay! My fundraising has been a bit stale these past years, and I was feeling a bit burnt out on fundraising as well. So I was trying to figure out how to incorporate fundraising for Relay into Pelofondo. I purposely picked to ride on Sunday April 18 (I could have chosen Saturday April 17) because I want to ride in memory of my mom. And that date marks 7 years she will be gone. And because I Relay for her every year, it seemed logical to make it come together in some way. And so I came up with the idea of "sponsorships" at different levels, and it has been a ton of fun. I set a goal of raising $750 as part of the fundraiser and I am well on my way to that. Thank you to those who have donated :) If you want info, details can be found here: Colleen's Pelofondo Relay for Life Fundrasier

Last two items to share from this past week:

1. I did my longest run since I started running again. It was a 60 minute interval run, and wow it was hard. With less than 5 minutes left, and everything in me wanting to pull back, I got a shout out from Bec's and it just brought me to tears. Ugly crying, couldn't breathe (which doesn't make running easier). And its because she had just got done saying "Don't doubt yourself". <3 Video here. My Peloton name is colleen_pit



2. Rode for 2 hours today to continue Steady Sunday. Did most of it in zone 2 and the best part is I so could have kept going. SO yay!

Lastly, March Intentions Update:

1. 6 blue dots a week: Definitely did not get this last week. I struggled with food.

2. Decrease screen time to 3 hours from 4 hours: I was up slightly from last week, but still below 3.5 hours. Still working my way down. 

3. Steady Sunday - Complete. 2 hours, and 33 miles today.


Have a wonderful week! I love you all!


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